(( TW: mentions of suicide, overdosing, death))
I KINDA MISS HIM BEING AROUND
BUT NOW THAT HE'S NOT HERE FOR A FEW DAYS
FROM THE DESK OF THE OTHER TWIN:
English and philosophy teachers scream until their throats are raw,
“Death is natural”-
As if it is something that can be found in the organic section of the grocery store
Something of bland taste and no added colourings.
Simple and needing of no explanation.
When my best friend took all of those pills last February it was vibrant and messy
Deep red and sticky
I didn’t think either of us would stop crying
He did.
On his birthday I can still taste the salt
A girl that I was dating forgot to check her blind spot and was crushed by a semi
The last thing she ever tasted was copper filling her lungs
Her dad loved her so much
Those cherry ambulance lights were probably the last things he ever saw in colour
God I’m so tired of beautiful people leaving this earth and being told that it is a natural part of life
It is ugly and gritty
It is vomit and tears
It is being 25 and not remembering how to call 911 and oh my god please wake up
This isn’t natural
This isn’t beautiful or simplified
This is feeling everything at once
And then nothing ever again
Because they took it with them.
This is being stupid enough to love something so fragile at night
Only to wake up and in the morning light realize that
You were left behind.
— Your voicemail was disconnected yesterday